It’s been awhile since I sat down with my tarot cards or even thought about the mystic world. I apologize both to myself, my cards, and even to you. Things have changed a lot since the eclipse. I’ve returned to school to pursue a degree as an Occupational Therapy Assistant and have been swamped with homework that involves finding evidence, proof, research, studies, etc.
I love it, and honestly when I’m done, I feel that my own magic and divination practices will fit in well. Occupational Therapy is about returning someone to wholeness, empowering them to function as the best version of themselves. It’s not just what’s broken, it’s what lies underneath, surrounds, and looms ahead that is considered, too. How does that not scream of magick?
And yet, I’ve been almost ashamed of using my cards, of burning incense, of anything “woo”. Why?
So I decided to do something about it to try and reconnect with my cards and myself.
November is the host of “National Novel Writing Month” which leads to the NaNoWriMo challenge of trying to write 50,000 words in one month. I’ve participated a few times in the past, never reaching that goal, but still having fun. However, with school I knew I’d have to put it off for this year. Instead, I decided to work on my spiritual interests and build on my books of shadow and light. 30 days of tarot, magick, magical study. I’ve been journaling my adventure over the past 12 days.
Somedays I’ve had a lot of time to read or meditate. Others days I had just enough time to burn incense with a focus in mind. However, I feel much closer to my cards and belief system. I almost lost that to science. I’ve even taken two days to reorganize my space and create a plan for where I could have “scared space” in a more permanent place of the house. It all goes towards my 30 day goal of having a larger base of my book of light and shadow. I’ve been reading more and letting my intuition pull me towards different aspects of magick. I thought for a long time, I’d be a green witch. But I enjoy gardening more than using the plants I grow. And I’m very close to my rosemary right now. So, greenish. But making herby teas and remedies like that isn’t something I’m excited about. I thought I would never enjoy candle magic, but I can’t wait to try it. It’s fascinating to expand, grow, change, and learn. I love it.
During this time, I’ve also been working with a new oracle deck that I rescued at my local used bookstore. Tiger and Dragon Oracle I Ching cards. When I first opened them at home I had a little buyer’s remorse. However, they play super well with my Druid Craft Tarot deck, and we are all becoming fast friends and better at designing spreads.
Today’s spread is simple: past, present, future – tarot cards; and an oracle card to help show the relationships.
Past and future sit below present in a pyramid shape. And the idea of the present it literally within this moment, or even moon cycle. Nothing super crazy, but I like seeing how past and future are more connected than I realize. And I like that present is highlighted at the top of the pyramid to remind me to be more present.
Today’s pull: using the Druid Craft Deck and the Tiger & Dragon Oracle Cards
Past – 2 of Swords
Present – High Preistess
Future – 5 of Wands
Oracle – Resoluteness
Seriously cards, this is exactly what I needed this morning. I felt that the choice I had to make was getting harder and harder the more I was using my science and logic-loving mind. I’m grateful that I created my grimoire project it’s helped reconnect. This project has led me to draw the High Priestess card (a first). I usually never resonate with the High Priestess. She’s what I want to be, but I always feel that I’m not even close. However, having her represent my present is a big reassurance that I am on the right path. However, it won’t be easy and there will be conflict ahead with my choices. And I can already think of a handful, which I won’t delve on, but I will journal about later. As for my Oracle’s wisdom, Resoluteness is needed to keep my hold on trying to reach High Priestess-ness. It won’t be easy, it hasn’t been easy, but it’s what I want and feel is right for me, so I should stick to the path.